Suicide: A Legacy of Pain
If you’re reading this it’s probably because someone very important to you died by suicide. First, I want to extend my heartfelt condolences for your loss. Then, I hope the information on our website will be of help and comfort. Like you, my life was forever altered when I lost my father. I understand what you’re going through.
I try not recall the sound of a car backfiring, and seeing my father’s arms sliding out of view from the car window as he slumped over in his seat. I try not to imagine the pain he must have felt that caused him to pull that trigger. I also try to forget cradling his head as I pulled him up, from what I thought was another night of drinking, only to have a Jell-O-like substance ooze over my hands. Or the gurgling sound while giving him CPR when he began to breath, and how I begged him to keep breathing while I ran to a nearby business to call 911. That’s the thing about suicide, try as I might to remember how my father lived his life, I always end up thinking how he ended it.
The sad truth is that people who are in the throes of suicidal thinking are so caught up in their own pain, just wishing for it to end, they often believe they are too much of a burden to others who are better off without them. Instead of solving their problem, they only leave behind a legacy of pain.
Valley of Shadows
If you were very close to the person who died and your grief is new, you may be struggling to get through each hour of every day. With the death of your loved one, you may feel thrust onto a surreal journey not of your own choosing. It’s important to know healing does occur. “Closure” is spoken about so much today but there’s never really closure. Instead you learn to survive and then to endure, and eventually you will go beyond surviving to experiencing a happy meaningful life.
Why do I care?
Having lived through suicide, I would do anything in my power to prevent anyone from experiencing that pain, guilt, anger, shame and the other paralyzing emotions. My comfortable life as a CEO with a six-figure salary, equity in unrelated entities, and the ability to telecommute three days a week changed after the company for which I was the CEO, had funds embezzled, to launch a business that would actually cause and profit from people committing suicide. Their business model was to target children with parents who could afford to pay for Reputation Management services to keep their children safe and high net worth individuals whose reputations are vital to the earning power—doctors, lawyers, and other professionals.
In order to make millions these businessmen created an automated technology that generated defamatory content about individuals and corporations who valued their reputations—the bigger the better. We’re talking about a whole new strain of WMDs—weapons of mass defamation. Think about it: What if allegations of pedophilia were to pop up the next time you Googled your name? Or what if obscene stories about your wife, children, or significant other came up? When what’s at stake is the destruction of your career, your marriage, or your child’s future, money is no object—and these predators know it. The fear-based marketing program was established on the premise that by tormenting teenagers with embarrassing details about their personal lives such as outing them if they’re gay to their social networks, or belittling them online for their looks or social skills or lack of friends, they could induce “little Johnny” to kill himself. After the suicides began, they believed no parent would turn down their services. When the time is right they will call or email their victims–Reputation Management to the rescue—antidote in one hand, anthrax in the other. (listen to the 2011 planning session to launch Google-Cide)
The Reputation Management sector is estimated to grow to $5 billion by 2015. That was enough of a draw to have nearly 3,000 affiliates utilize the fear-based marketing program mentioned above. Nearly 3,000 entities are utilizing something in geek-speak called a SQL injection code. This particular variety was created to do a number of things, including de-indexing (hiding) specific pages from search engines.
The $5 billion in Reputation Management seems like a lot, but there are bigger plays involved and they have Google in their sight. That’s right—they plan to extort Google. The fear-based marketing program was predicated on casting Google in a false light, as they say on the audio recordings, they will make Google look like the Evil Empire.
They determined that the suicides will eventually cause a ground swell of anger toward Google. This will open them to further attacks by Google’s competitors, setting in motion the opportunity for these Reputation Management companies and rivals of Google to garner “expert witness fees” based on junk science by testifying in defamation lawsuits against Google. They have attorneys primed to file class-action lawsuits against Google, and these lawyers will pay a large portion of the settlement fees to the very rivals of Google whom are employing key members of the Reputation Management companies.
The pain for suicide survivors is immense and lasts a lifetime. Victims of Google-Cide have had their hopes, dreams, and life cut short because of the torment inflicted by cell phone, computer, or other electronic device. The increase of personal and professional cyber-bullying is directly related to the growth in the current network of Google-Cide resellers to over 3,000 entities. If your loved one or someone you know committed suicide as a result of online bullying, they could have been a victim of Google-Cide.
I can’t expect you to take my word for all this. I have their plans for Google-Cide on tape as well as their plans to have me killed once I began talking about this. They have already made good on one of their threats toward me by destroying my reputation online. Go ahead—Google my name. It’s mud if you don’t already know me. Let me give you an example of how these people think and operate. If you Google me, you will also see a cartoon drawing they have used in an attempt to shame me. Let me provide some context: Four years ago I had an accident which dissected my aorta in three places and formed blood clots in my leg. I had so much trauma the doctors gave me a 10 percent chance of survival, and if I did live I would be a vegetable. They placed me into a medically induced coma for three weeks as they believed it was the only way I could survive. The amount of blood I lost caused a deformity in my right leg, left me incontinent, and unable to walk on my own. Six months later I regained enough motor control to take steps on my own.
A couple years later two of the people involved in the creation of Google-Cide claimed to have been destitute, and I let them live at my home. While I am a very private person, anyone living at my home would quickly discern I was incontinent. When Googling my name, you will pull up a cartoon drawing of myself portrayed as a monkey who has his feet turned up with curled hammer toes (I admit the cartoon monkey does depict the deformity on my right foot from the accident), and pooping into his foot and then flinging the poo. This is obviously an effort to shame me for my disability. I share this not for sympathy, but to let you know the lengths these people will go to, and what your loved one may have endured prior to taking their lives.
I am asking that if you or your child is being defamed, to please take a moment and fill out the Defame Alert page. This page will help us identify these resellers of the fear-based program called Google-Cide. Keep track of the emails and phone calls offering to fix your ‘Reputation Management’ problem or by people whom call themselves ‘First Responders’ to your loved ones Cyber Bullying problem.